Went to watch the christmas carol with the friends :D we talked alot and chat alot, still today was quite enjoyable. Movie was quite boring, i knew the storyline already ! -.-" the movie followed what i exactly wanted, the only change was the movie being realistic, that's all. Presents? my birthday is coming, but i will be on obs on that day, don't bother to give me presents, i never had recieve any presents and will never do. One more thing, empire state of mind topped the billboard chart, thnk god ^_^.

Am i mute? tell me pls? when i'm questioning you, why are u ignoring me anyways? We might not have been in contact for a long time but at least when i ask u if u rmb me, you could have answer, you didn't, it made me angry. Not just you, another guy also made me angry. I hate being angry, but u made me do so. Another thing, I wish all of you will wipe that smiles of yours soon, i don't like that, i know i'm being mean here, yes, i'm jealous of you all, why can you keep that smile of yours plasted on your faces all day long and i can't? I'm unhappy right now, just wipe those smiles of yours and be unhappy like me, then i will be very happy, thx. I'm being mean here but i don't give a damn anymore.

Dear diary, i have recovered and went back to school, i should have known not to go back there.

As friends, you should be more caring and not joking if you have not known i was still in a bad mood, please try to be more understanding.

My life is screwed up today, totally screwed up. Apologies to people whom i ignored because i was preoccupied with 1 thing. Yes, 1 thing instead of many people. 1 thing that is so important that i can ignore everyone, how great. Pfft.

Did not go to school today because i pon school today was running a high fever yesterday, the fever subsided today but I'm very lethargic right now due to the medicines consumed. One person to thank is my mom who never fails to take care of me during the night, despite being sleepy and kinda fatigue. anyways thanks again mom(L) and my dad also(L) 2 days of medical leave ^^ The process of having a fever is really torturous,  really felt like on the verge of death. Head was burning like hell and yesterday night, i was shivering quite severely both my legs and hand was cold, despite trying to keep them warm. Wore socks but my feet was urber cold, had to lay my feet under two layers of blanket and was still shivering ><  Slept comfortably after temprature drop down. Went to see the doctor today and he mentioned about the o levels, yea everywhere also mention le, gotta study during this holiday ><"" Something happened when i was crossing the traffic light back home. So when a green man is on, it doesn't necessarily mean that we are always safe. I was walking through the traffic light with the green man on when a truck suddenly sped infront of me. If i had taken one more step, i would have been knocked down. Damn that stupid truck driver, should have known not to sped when the red light is on and the green man is on too. Could have killed someone with that reckless driving of yours.Flabbergasted. Almost a hit and run incident, can't believe the traffic crossing i was on was also the incident of a boonlayian got knocked down and killed by a van. Mom said that the crossing was "dirty" so to all people using this traffic crossing , be careful.

Dear diary, i ignored him her them for this week.

Kaleidorama was okay ( i can't describe it anyways alright?) So.. woke up at 9 as i was watching show until 1 am, wacth tv then went to singapore poly, met the peeps there. Sad that en zhan was at jurong island for chemistry, since he went for kaleidorama in the morning. Wasted bringing my phone so that i could request him to send his songs over to my phone ... :< So performance sat with ah chen and we tuned into radio instead of listening to the performance :> bought the kid licking pig badge, $2 :O some people clamouring for my phone :p Went back with wan shu back to jp, separated from there.

I'm confused again, you're back from japan. I said i will sort out my life first but i didn't, it's still a mess, i'm trying to find an excuse to forget all about this. Ignorance- something i never like, yet it in own ways was good enough for me to avoid people whom i don't want to see, but turns out you will also be ignored by people whom u never will expect to ignore you. Supposedly  i want to apologize to you, supposedly u will never accept my apology, supposedly you may accept my apology, supposedly i don't even want to apologize to you, strange. Human works like that, you're bothered with other people's reaction, something u expected might turn out wrong. Nobody wanted this but it's true. Sometimes i wondered if being back as friends is good, sometimes maybe being acquaintence would be better off as well, yet i regretted thinking of that. So if i apologize to you, will you still forgive me? i don't know it's up to you to decide because you're the one whom has the choice to forgive me or not, not me and not other people, in case if you didn't know it's you in post 50.

It's almost one week since i posted on this blog. Firstly,to the peeps who went to japan, WELCOME BACK :D Regretted not to come on the japan trip, yet i felt that going on the japan trip might not be a good idea, nah probably being at school is fun? hehe :)

Woke up at 9++ no lessons today due to kaleidorama rehearsal, yesterday had a really bad day will talk about it later. Watched tv, went with mom to eat ayam penyet, chicken is too dry :/ then walked around jp before heading back home, drenched in the rain. Won't elaborate other stuffs.

Yesterday : Physics was fine, Mt was boring -.- Recess :D, DNT practical was screwed up especially souldering! Hafiz stolen my teddy bear but since i didn't gave him any bithday present and he's been my DNT partner for half a year, so might as well~ Fingers were scorched due to the carelessness of me holding the metallic part and not the  plastic part  ;( After lesson was supposed to meet with hui juan to help her with badge making, ended up 1 hour late due to the stupid screwed up DNT practical, was so !#@#$#$%@$^@#$ but was quite astounded that it was hui juan and the others who made my day LOL cos i laughed like seriously XD the badges were so freaking awesome, teachers' faces and some badges that have a kid licking a pig's nose :P after that accompanied hui juan to buy stuffs at jp then go back home.Hope tommorow's kaleidorama will be fantastic, if it isn't then i would request for ticket refund :P

xoxo

Life's a rainstorm but it may also be a rainbow after the storm.

Forgot to post something yesterday so here it is :) Bon voyage to the peeps who are going to japan expecially bestie(s) God :( next week most of my friends are at japan while i'm stuck here with boring lessons and no one to talk to D: Anyways have a happy and safe trip there, do rest well cos i knew all of you took the 1 am flight to kyushu, should be tiring.

Begining to feel that i'm really starting to be irritating, should talk lesser nowadays, but i seriously need some one to talk to (!) Got the thought of having to jump down from my 6-storey flat yesterday, so that i could end my life earler and without worries, but... it's a stupid thought and i would never accomplish it anyways.. Life still has to go on, and i should relax abit right now, peer pressure and studies are really going to take over my mind soon, hope i wouldn't land in the woodbridge mental institution.

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Anyone would have wondered why they are being ignored, in most case they got back their reason for why thery are being ignored, yet this is not in my case. You ignored my questions during the lesson, even if the reason you're ignoring me is due to personal problem between you and me, you could have responded back to me, as a classmate...  You ignored me for almost a month, when i asked you why you were ignoring me, you did not answer me, if there's some problem between you and me, why don't you tell me?  Again you were the one whom i mentioned in post 50*, i won't be seeing you next week because you will be in japan, let me sort out my life first and let fate decide whether our friendship could continue or to stop indefinitely.**

Lessons today are fine, though there were many moments where i yawned, the lessons were mostly okay :) Recess chatted with mr leow a bit, he's really a great caring teacher :) Combine humans sit with En Zhan ^^ After school had a meeting, prior to that, sat with wan shu, shu hui and mai ly, miss azlina came and told me that i had so many girfrens, laughs so embarassing hahas :) 3 people turned up for the meeting and soonafter completed the meeting and went back home. I have a feeling that Geylang and everybody are ignoring me... I need someone to listen to my woes, unfortunately geylang is the only friend whom i trusted to say my feelings out. I never ever shared my feelings out with guys, oops sry guys :X The thing that we have common are to play, in sharing stuffs like feelings, you would always spread it out with your big mouth(s). Girls on the other hand manage secrets really well, thus it's better to trust them more than boys in handling feelings.

Lastly.. i do not want anyone to question me on my posts, especially "you", not the 'you" in my post *50 but you! Please stop being so nosey k? I have already told you many times " it's for me to know and for you to find out ". you should have memorise this sentence in your head already. You and i are no longer friends, you don't have to ask me about this post,you should know this yourself.

okay my post is abit explict edited unwanted sutffs alright byes :)

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Everyone is ignoring me.....

Hello hello :) Today's a brand new day of RAINING :DDD The weather was just suitable for my mood (......) Went school today and recieved en zhans "lame" mssges hahas :) met him, cs and ah chen at fitness corner chatted a bit before meeting my usual clique at the usual same place. Today's physics was quite fun, i think mr tan proved me wrong that his lessons were boring, it's starting to get more interesting :) Chemistry after this and have a great time doing practical. Recess :DDD sat there eating with the usual clique :) but we had a soft conversation which is confidential :X Combine humans were really boring , 2hrs ): But it was raining cats and dogs :DDDD okay here's what happened, in the middle of the lesson, a VERY LOUD lightning strike and all of us were stunned, it was the loudest lightning strike i have ever heard, so shocking because it's nearby :X Somemore there were like vibration when the lightning striked, lol i think the girls were quite frightened. After that went bac home :)

Not another "you" again, for goodness sake i mentioned you in my post, this morning i heard you again saying " it's better to compete with the stronger people rather than the weaker people" Seriously u are trying to implement that you'r in a gd calss again?! we know we know, i'm not in a gd class alright? can stfu? And during recess, i know when we kept on chattting softly and kept on looking at you, it doesn't mean that we're talking about you. You don't have to personally send a mssg to us asking what we have been talking about, you're just sitting at the next table beside us! Can't u walk to us and ask what we're talking about?? Maybe u feel guilty? What makes you think that we are backstabbing you when you ALREADY backstabbed some of us? you don't even have the rights to know that we backstab you becos you made accusations just to set a trap for us, not that easy >:) F.Y.I we din even think of backstabbing you because we won't even stoop to such a low tactic.

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Life's full of miserable moments.

No wonder many people didn't like the extended term, i'm starting to feel the fatigue of having lessons that are 1hr and 30 min and 2hr long in duration zzzz.Well at least i did anticipate to come to school early in the morning because it's so peaceful and quiet. :) Started with chem in the morning, went to bio lab as both chem labs are being hogged, started with theory and then practical, need to practise on chemistry :( But practical was fun :D Then emaths, came back to classroom and what do i saw?? A PIGSTY (!!!!!!!) The history elect. students made the whole place messy manss D; so had to shout out to choon hui and the others ( they are responsible for the class cleanliness today) Some willing volunteers and me cleaned up the classroom as well, now it's spick and span :D Mr lee said that we made an attempt to clean the classroom :) then learned radian ( already learned this weeks ago by my own-self :P) but still there are some questions which i'm unsure of :) RECESS :DDD, 2Hrs of core history, boring but interesting :) early dismissal :) En zhan accompanied me to Jp to top up my prepaid card and also to buy ss txt bk at popular, the staff was so SLOW! waited 10 mins for nothing, En zhan had to be back at school so decided not to buy the txt book since the service was so slow. Went back school for a while then came back home. :) Thx En zhan for spending his time to accompany me to go jp :D 2 more days to Japan trip :) hahas i'm not the one going, too bad :( but i suppose i don't even want to stay at a 3 stars hotel there :P anyways to the peeps, prepare your stuffs already, don't slack now haha :)

and..

I think i'm really incapable of being a chariman and as a student... i just hope that i could get on over this life, i'm so sick of this world!

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I want to escape from reality, i really want....

Shit, today's been yawning like no business cos yesterday slept at 12p.m, 12??!! LOL i'm not the person who can bear without sleeping through the night.

So EM today, fine i guess... :) Got a new teacher teaching us physics, Mr johnny tan :D Heard that he really teaches well, but somehow (...) his lessons are too fast and i seriously don't know why i'm so not interested in his lessons ._. afterwards RECESS :D follow up are 2 hours of Combine humans (!!!)  i survived it LOL but it was until only the end that i enjoyed the lesson because we practised doing SBQ (...) Nothing much and had to plan for graduation lunch party so gd bye :)

P/S i'm not the zhi lian kind of person, so i nvr post too much of my own picture becos i think of myself as ugly :P

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Don't lament about how your life is full of hardship, who doesn't?